JALYN'S FAREWELL

On Thursday we celebrated Jalyn's farewell party everybody was there to celebrate it with her and she really looked soooo extremely happy. Najihah's spaghetti was totally delicious and Shiqah's cupcakes are extremely sweet and i love it so much!!. The texture ans the cream goes soo well so I eat 3 of them. SHIQAH HELP ME MAKE DELICIOUS CUPCAKES!!!!! XDDDDD

I've got bio class at dat time starting at 12.05 so im really not enjoying da party at first. Eventhough Miss Ilzam gave permission for 10 min max but Fauzul and Mau are totally inda peduli which is like WATTTT???? Mirah and me were panicking coz 10 mins are up and its not fair for da other students to study while we are partying especially for Aishah she cried when jalyn said she was the longest friend she ever have and also I felt touched.. I understand how it is to leave or being left behind... its so sad dat its happening to my friend in front of eyes. But Aishah is really brave. She cried in front of me and I felt confused.. She dared to cry but I didn't and I wondered why?? I can't cry because of somthing dats been preventing me from crying but I don't know what.... I wish I can find the answer to dat soon........

I saw traces of you
In a sadly blooming flower.
Even though I love the rain,
Today it seems so cold.

Faint , fleetingly, the flower sways in the night
Letting out a single sigh, a fallen flower petal

I gather shards of the moon, decorate a dream and sleep
Even if I scatter the sands of time
I know I can never return to those days.

I looked up at the sky suddenly
Searching again for you
How many nights will it take
before tears become strength?

The seasons change. The forests are stained
The winds play a tune. Thoughts overflow

I want to meet you, my beloved
I want to touch you, it’s so painful
But it won’t reach you, I can’t tell you
These things won’t come true, it’s too far away.
You are no longer here.

The flower knows that it will die and be scattered,
but still it lives on full of vitality and color.

I gather shards of the moon, decorate a dream and sleep
Even if I scatter the sands of time
I know I can never return to those days.

I want to meet you, my beloved
I want to touch you, it’s so painful
But it won’t reach you, I can’t tell you
These things won’t come true, it’s too far away.
You are no longer here.

Freaking Chem practical was soooo hard kan mati ku eh tadi alum lagi siap tuuuuuuuuuuuu *sigh* den my hands lagi orange because of da Fehling's reagent and it stinks!! Then at EAS we play a game called "Just For A Minute" where we are given a certain topic and talk non-stop about it. It was soo silly. ahahaha My topic is about teeth and i just blabbed about teeth which is so lame XDDDDDDD

Then after dat da usual place in the library alone and chat with lacus-chan ahaha she's fwenfwen wit senpai kyah~ u n0e dorang cosplay d skulah ah siok eh da principal dorang mengalakkan cosplay bah isn't dat super duper cool XDD and after waiting for about 30 min datanglah my escort c bilah-chan and bawa me to da ICT lab and hang out wit dem while dey do their project. Now am searching how to cut a fringe coz my hair is driving me nuts my front hair dat is not my back beautiful long luxurious hair(nada deh exxagerating saja hahaha)

Chapter 1: Alone in the Rain

That day, it was raining. I could still remember it, as clear as day. Ironic, eh?

So, here's my life story. What changed me, how I became...the Black Cat.

“No! How could you?”

“Heh. So it looks like I've become weak too,” Zagiene said, shriveled up against the wall.

“But, I wanted to kill you! Now I'll look stupid for making you my target!”

I stood there, in the rain, furiously demanding that this wasn't true. Of course, I wanted to kill him myself, but not now, not so soon. As far as I knew, he was my only connection to the real world.

“Oh, so I was your target eh? Interesting, now Train, don't forget, this is the reality of this world, the weak die and the strong live. Live on, Train, trust no one, question the unquestionable, and become truly strong...” and those were the last words Zagiene ever spoke.

I knelt beside him in the rain, feeling truly helpless. I couldn't do anything in the world. Absolutely nothing. I felt insignificant; it was as if I was but a little seedling trying to sprout, but I was trampled on before I was given the chance to prove myself.

Live on, become truly strong.

Those were the only words I had to go by. I had no idea how I wanted to spend my life, but the problem now was, I would have to learn how to survive first.

“Hey kid, what are you doing?” a voice came.

I turned around rapidly.

“Why do you have a gun in your hand?” the person asked. “And..uh...who's that?”

He pointed at Zagiene.

“I...I didn't do it!”

“Hm, so why do you have a gun in your hand?” the person asked again.

I stared at the gun, and then back to the person. Then back at the gun again.

“I need...” I whispered.

“Here, hold on, I'll call help.” the person said, pulling out a phone slowly.

“No, don't!”

I aimed for his cellphone. BOOM! Honestly, though, me still being the amateur I was, I still couldn't withstand the backfiring force of the gun.

Me still being the amateur I was, missed.

Just a couple of seconds later, the person in front of me, collapsed to the ground, right at my feet.

I froze, shaking in the rain. What on earth had I done? Had I become a killer? I stood there pondering my moral values for a minute, until...

I heard sirens.

I looked towards the person's hand, the cellphone and I realized that he had dialed for the police.

“Oh shoot, the police,” I cursed.

I ran for dear life. I heard the sirens coming down the street and I bolted in the other direction.

I kept on running, didn't look back. The police didn't follow. Of course, I was only a kid to them.

A kid with no purpose, running aimlessly down the street.

Of course, in the rain, they couldn't even tell I was crying.

A sharp realization hit me. I had no parents, no one that loved me, no one that cared about me, no one that even knew my existence. As far as anyone did care, I didn't have to exist in the world.

No, I was completely, and utterly alone. And there was only one way I could survive in this world.

I had to learn how to kill. Kill for money, kill for food, and kill, to survive...

I burst into tears as I embraced the horrifying truth.

Story 1
One day at approximately midnight, I started hearing weird whistling noises coming from my attic. I armed myself with a chair and cautiously made my way up the steps. The noises got louder and louder, until they were as loud as a bed. I kicked open the door to my attic and screamed awuuuu~ at the top of my lungs. There, in the center of the attic, was the MONSTER. It had 13 eyes and a cute nose. It pulled and attacked. I threw my weapon of choice, the chair, at it and ran out of the room screaming. I accidentally stepped on a human and toppled head over heels down the stairs. From that day foreward, I never saw or heard the monster in my attic again. That is, until, I heard that all too familiar whistling outside my window one night...

1) Do you prefer Crushin’, Interested in, or Relationship?
– umm relationship sooner or later rite??

2) When you meet the right person, do you fall fast?
– yesh

3) Have you ever had your heart broken?
– yup

4) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is acceptable?
– not sure

5) Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
– nope!

6) Have you talked about marriage with another person?
– yeah my mum and fwens keep nagging on and on about it

7) If somebody liked you right now, what do you think a cool way to let you know would be?
– antah ah but i prefer them to tell it to me straightforwardly

8) Do you enjoy playing hard to get?
- of course!!

9) Be honest, do you play the “game” when you are dating?
– ??

10) Do you believe in love at first sight?
–well~ it happen to me ^^

11) Are you a romantic?
– maybe... depends

12) Do you believe that you can change someone?
– i hope so

13) If you could get married anywhere, where would it be?
– at Japan when da sakuras are blossoming *swoon*

14) Sex buddies – good or bad?
–i choose bad!!

15) Do you easily give in when you are fighting?
–depends on da situation but most of da time i just smile ^^

16) Do you have feelings for someone right now, whether they know or not?
–yeap but im torned between hating him and keep on hoping =.="

17) Have you ever wished you could’ve had someone but you messed that up?
–.... not sure ah

18.) Have you broken a heart?
– i really don't know... :P

Best
1. Male Friend:im not sure hentai kali??
2. Female Friend: i dun choose between my friends
3. Vacation: Japan
4. Memory: when he touches me and patted me on the shoulders ^^

Worst
1. Time of day: school morning.
2. Day of the week: monday
3. Food: mayonnaise!!
4. Memory: when i tripped in front of people

Last
1. Person you saw: sister
2. Talked to on the phone: rarely talked on the phone
3. Text: djah
4. Messaged over MySpace? : dun have Myspace

Today
1. What are you doing right now?
- sleep, blogging, facebook-ing

2. Wearing?
-baby blue t-shirt and short brown pants

3. Better than yesterday?
- nope worse yesterday is sunday

4. Did you see the person you like?
- nope sadly i wish i could see him

5. What’s the weather?
- gloomy and windy just da way i like it

Tomorrow
1. Is: tuesday
2. Got any plans? : still waiting for him to show up
3. Dislikes about tomorrow: da pain of waiting

Favorite
1. Number: 13
2. Song:anime OST
3. Season: Autumn.
4. Cartoon: animes

Currently
1. Missing someone: momiji senpai =.="
2. Mood: mixed
3. Wanting: NUTELLA and SENPAI
4. Listening to: yume no tsubasa

True or False
I am a morning person: false.
I am an only child: false.
I am currently in my PJ’s: False.
I am currently suffering from a broken heart:half
I can be paranoid at times: false
I currently regret something that I have done: false.
I curse frequently: sometimes true.
I enjoy country music: true
I enjoy hip hop: false
I enjoy techno/trance: false
I enjoy talking on the phone: false.
I have a hidden talent: maybe true maybe false
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal: true.
I have all my grandparents: false.
I have at least one brother and/or sister: true.
I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor: true
I have changed a diaper:true ////////
I have changed a lot over the past year: true
I have had major/minor surgery: false.
I have had my hair cut within the last 2 months: false.
I have had the cops called on me: false.

Single or Taken: single.
Eye color: dark brown
Hair:reddish brown
Height: around 150-160
Righty or lefty: righty.
Can you make a dollar in change right now? : nope too lazy bah....

1) Do you prefer Crushin’, Interested in, or Relationship?
– umm relationship sooner or later rite??

2) When you meet the right person, do you fall fast?
– yesh

3) Have you ever had your heart broken?
– yup

4) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is acceptable?
– not sure

5) Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
– nope!

6) Have you talked about marriage with another person?
– yeah my mum and fwens keep nagging on and on about it

7) If somebody liked you right now, what do you think a cool way to let you know would be?
– antah ah but i prefer them to tell it to me straightforwardly

8) Do you enjoy playing hard to get?
- of course!!

9) Be honest, do you play the “game” when you are dating?
– ??

10) Do you believe in love at first sight?
–well~ it happen to me ^^

11) Are you a romantic?
– maybe... depends

12) Do you believe that you can change someone?
– i hope so

13) If you could get married anywhere, where would it be?
– at Japan when da sakuras are blossoming *swoon*

14) Sex buddies – good or bad?
–i choose bad!!

15) Do you easily give in when you are fighting?
–depends on da situation but most of da time i just smile ^^

16) Do you have feelings for someone right now, whether they know or not?
–yeap but im torned between hating him and keep on hoping =.="

17) Have you ever wished you could’ve had someone but you messed that up?
–.... not sure ah

18.) Have you broken a heart?
– i really don't know... :P

Best
1. Male Friend:im not sure hentai kali??
2. Female Friend: i dun choose between my friends
3. Vacation: Japan
4. Memory: when he touches me and patted me on the shoulders ^^

Worst
1. Time of day: school morning.
2. Day of the week: monday
3. Food: mayonnaise!!
4. Memory: when i tripped in front of people

Last
1. Person you saw: sister
2. Talked to on the phone: rarely talked on the phone
3. Text: djah
4. Messaged over MySpace? : dun have Myspace

Today
1. What are you doing right now?
- sleep, blogging, facebook-ing

2. Wearing?
-baby blue t-shirt and short brown pants

3. Better than yesterday?
- nope worse yesterday is sunday

4. Did you see the person you like?
- nope sadly i wish i could see him

5. What’s the weather?
- gloomy and windy just da way i like it

Tomorrow
1. Is: tuesday
2. Got any plans? : still waiting for him to show up
3. Dislikes about tomorrow: da pain of waiting

Favorite
1. Number: 13
2. Song:anime OST
3. Season: Autumn.
4. Cartoon: animes

Currently
1. Missing someone: momiji senpai =.="
2. Mood: mixed
3. Wanting: NUTELLA and SENPAI
4. Listening to: yume no tsubasa

True or False
I am a morning person: false.
I am an only child: false.
I am currently in my PJ’s: False.
I am currently suffering from a broken heart:half
I can be paranoid at times: false
I currently regret something that I have done: false.
I curse frequently: sometimes true.
I enjoy country music: true
I enjoy hip hop: false
I enjoy techno/trance: false
I enjoy talking on the phone: false.
I have a hidden talent: maybe true maybe false
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal: true.
I have all my grandparents: false.
I have at least one brother and/or sister: true.
I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor: true
I have changed a diaper:true ////////
I have changed a lot over the past year: true
I have had major/minor surgery: false.
I have had my hair cut within the last 2 months: false.
I have had the cops called on me: false.

Single or Taken: single.
Eye color: dark brown
Hair:reddish brown
Height: around 150-160
Righty or lefty: righty.
Can you make a dollar in change right now? : nope too lazy bah....

A-kinda-relaxed-stressed-day

Because i sleep for 13 hours straight yesterday i didn't realised that djah was inviting me to rhona's place to play badminton. I was soooo tired so malas lah. So i went today and arrived at 9.30. I thought i was late already but i saw rhona and other guys playing basketball. I thought they started playing badminton already but unfortunately da hall was locked because da guard was going to church so we waited for him for about 2 hours so I started to play with rhona and djah under the sun (kira lagi challenging) then main sama c Faiz. When I played with him i accidentally fell when trying to catch da ball and landed on my butt!! Ah sungguh memalukan...... I scratched my finger but its ok now.

Then we stopped playing and awkward silence~ so i decided dat i wanted some ice-cream so we went to buy some guna kereta c Rawi COOL kaliah~ so lalalalalala da day ended without playing a serious game of badminton and da guys ditched us. They go play arah da new dewan so me, rhona and djah juz cerita2 sal c Mr.P ^^ go rhona confessed to him lah........